Hi God~

Dear father lord in heaven,

im feeling miserable by now,
i think i have subscribe to depression and a lil bit of obsessive compulsive disorder
i despite myself no matter what situations it were
fighting vigorously just to myself clear about my stupidity weaknesses and desperateness which happens frequently due inability to achieve what i had planned for or i think U had planned for me.
And of course with another crime of not doing the supposely be done or doing things that i listed down or trying to re-arrange and list down in my mind
i always know what is the best actions i should take however resistance is massive
and the cycle n routine keep on repeating n it never fails me to see it keep on going on and on and on and on again again n again!
i know about christian;s missions ,i just want to run away from every responsibilities!
Lord,i know U will save me n proclaim me and eventually provided me with every thing U assign for me and what i have ask for
yet running has become a big attractive options for me
since the day i failed to score straight A's although i cnt really think of what it matters to my life now anywhere,(i had moved forward from that shithole ,thank you jesus)
my relationship with friends suck from long time ago lord.
everyone who knows me will think i am shitting away,but God,Thy know i am telling the truth more than frankly
im terribly afraid to be known by anyone,about my inner self ,which i once think was filthy , now,since i am clean n purified in Urs holy name,i was upset by the fragileness of so-called friendship could be
oh God,nothing is real in this world besides U



yet my abba father ,
after following Ur gracious will and actually wrote down what was tangling inside of me
oppositions can be seen clearly between Ur goodness and devil's evilness
behold me my lord
held me inside ur arms
re-strengthen me with Ur amazing power
shower me with more n more of Ur miraculous signs
lord,i pray for the healing power to come upon me,emotionally spiritually and physically lord,only in Ur holy name
i will be save and U have made things so easy for us,
just for us to cry out the mighty name of Jesus Christ
and salvation is upon us.
lord,i thank You.
thank U for saving me and us by sending Ur only beloved son to the cross
thanks Jesus for Ur loving heart to sacrifice for us and tender mind for mercy to land on us all.
LORD,I PRAY FOR THE HEALING OF MY HEART,MAY DEMONS CAST AWAY FROM ME NO MATTER WHERE I GO,N UR BLESSINGS SHALL ALWAYS FOLLOW N REMAIN FOREVER LAST UNTIL THE DAY MY SPIRIT LIFTED N MEET U ")
IN SPIRIT I WORSHIP U,IN TEARS I HAVE FAITH ON U,OUT OF DESPERATION U LIFT ME UP WITH HOPES,IN DARKNESS UR LOVE SHINE.
OH LORD OH LORD,
I LOVE YOU,
IN ALMIGHTY NAME OF JESUS CHRIST.
I PRAY
AMEN.